One of the lost card

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When I read the second day, fans on the Internet, after school often stole into Internet cafes. Just at that time, my heart has been a yellow website invasion. One day, I couldn't live a long hair young lobbying, high price to buy a pack of playing cards. It is not an ordinary deck, not ordinary lies in the sultry soul, make people blush heartbeat picture.
After that day, I almost became the deck spirit prisoner, over and over again to peek, a fantasy ... ... Slowly, I changed, become lonely, like a person to stay in the corner; be quiet, a meal is tied into the house ... ... All of this, only I know: because of the deck of cards.
If not for the accident, maybe I will be the fate of the river in fourteen years old to change direction, to an unknown place --
The day after gym class, I suddenly found on the table of the hole in the deck of a little a! When students are very simple, if teachers or classmates know I indulge in such a shameful thing, that they will take me as a rogue view!
That is a red peach K, I remember very clearly. I am afraid of exercise that poker out, so physical education before specially put it out from my pocket to put the desk. Me again and again to number the deck of cards, a little yes, 53! Again and again I carefully check it all possible places, but no sign of him.
The next few days, I was a " missing" cards got hung up. I feel very bad, very dirty, even three five students together quietly laughing also made me nervous: they are talking about me?
The remaining 53 cards from like a hot potato, I don't know what to do. Want to hide it, but the cabinet after five minutes and took it out of it, so be careful be turned out to be burned down; or throw them away, but the heart has unwilling, unable to convince myself. Finally, I have the deck into the pocket, look at, not willing to throw.
I know this, we bought it is completely mistaken.
It is the final exam, students are in devote oneself heart and soul to review, but I was in any case also regulate mood. Pubescent restlessness and remorse let my heart sky is dark.
One day afternoon after school, the teacher asked me : " Meng, you come to my office. " My heart will be very upset, is usually strictly regimented teacher found me that time is wrong, to " repair " me!
" Son of Mongolian, it must take a test, the students are hard to review, but you hung up, how to return a responsibility? "
" No, No. The teacher, and I'm trying ... ... " My voice trembling, ramble in one's statement.
" You are a love of learning, willing to hard-working child, the teacher can be crystal clear. " Teacher paused, patted me on the shoulder, express volumes said, " this time I have been looking at your change. My son with you, I know what happen in your children this age psychological as well as physical changes, this is normal, but must handle, to establish the correct values, is not conducive to physical and mental health to firmly resist! "
My heart suddenly fell into the abyss. Finished, I finished. However, she changed the subject: " your recent achievement to drop badly, but you play fast, just study hard to catch up. I have a tutor a book, I am the son to buy and buy you a present, you look away. The teacher wants to see is a know how to treat it, to overcome their own children, but not a fall into a wrong path inextricably bogged down in students. Remember, adolescent confusion and depression everyone will experience, the key is to find a reasonable export ... ... "
I don't know how the teacher is holding the book went back to the classroom. Go back to your seat, I gently opened the exudes oil ink book, a dazzling cards came into sight, just what I was missing, they can't find it!
Originally, I threw them into the table hole to physical education courses, accidentally will this slip out, is to check the classroom teacher found out and away. Teacher in charge of a class in order to protect a teenage boy's pride would not be hurt, deliberately down the playing cards. She was severely criticized, accusing me of something, but let me have since then and unhealthy things break determination.
That evening, I put the 54 cards on the same stone together in a newspaper, severely dropped into the river west vortex. I want to go away, with rolling river, is not only a pack of cards, but a rather obscure and youth events, as well as deep that fear and confusion.
I walked lightly on the way home, feel grown up a lot ... ...
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